Doubt

Just had my first moment of doubt, is weird it just hit me and I thought 'can i really do this' and part of me thinks, do I really want to do this? Give up on lazy days, eating whatever I want etc.

But the reasons why I should do it are far greater;
Buy nicer clothes
Wear a bikini for the first time
Feel more self confident
Have more luck in love
Never feel superior to my friends again
Be more healthy
Have more fitness
Wear a gorgeous dress for my 20th birthday
Have guys be able to pick me up (sounds silly)
Live longer!
Be able to just order clothes and know that they'll fit
Never have to hide clothing labels or cut them out of clothes
Get further in the Events Industry as it is quite a looks orientated industry

I just need to remember this list whenever I have a moment of doubt. It won't be easy, but it's something I need to do. At the moment I am just focusing on my Valentines Day goal. If I break it up into smaller chunks it doesn't seem as daunting.

Countdown

I've just added a countdown clock (you should be able to see it on the right of this post!)
136 days until my birthday! Crazy times. Sounds like a long way away, but I know it'll just fly by.

Frenemies?

Am having a bit of a dilemma, I live in a house with 3 other girls. We are all good friends, but they are very style concious. I've always felt that since i'm a lot larger than them they kind of look down on me for it...I want to tell them that i'm trying to lose weight, but they are the sort of people who will either a) get jealous if I lose weight and get more attention than them or b) decide to join me and end up losing more weight as some sort of competition.
I guess i'll just have to tell them, especially as I won't be drinking alcohol until the 9th of Feb so will let you know how it goes!

Sainsburys

Just went to do my weekly shop for next week, have planned out every meal so only bought what I needed...no tempting snacks or treats!
Must admit I stopped at Macdonalds on the way back...I just think it's better to have one today than to keep thinking about having one next week! Am also going out for a sunday lunch tonight with my housemates so it will be my 'last meal' before the fun starts.
Sainsburys was a nightmare though, living in Fallowfield the most student populated area of Manchester, means that you have to pay a pound for the trolley (as students have the habit of taking trolleys home...) but I didn't have a pound coin so had to use a basket, which weighed a ton! Arm nearly fell off by the time I got home.

Secret Diary of a Call Girl

I've just finished catching up on Secret Diary of a Call Girl (on ITV). I would love to have as much body confidence as Billie Piper's character Hannah does on the show. Just the way she moves is so graceful and elegant, whereas I always feel big and clumsy.

Maybe once i've lost a bit of weight i'll start pole dancing or chair dancing classes, just to make me feel a bit more confident and sexy, they are meant to do wonders for your self confidence.

Track

Finally finished making my Couch to 5K week one track on garage band, have such a good mix of songs! But hopefully will have some songs left for next week...it took longer than i thought to mix the track so hopefully it's worth it!

Couch to 5K!

Oooh forgot to say if anyone is interested in the Couch to 5K programme the website is

Couch to 5K